I never thought of writing my thoughts or daily activities but for me this has been very therapeutic, during my pregnancy everything seemed possible in a positive sense of things I was lucky, let me rephrase that, I was extremely lucky, I had zero ZERO!! pregnancy symptoms, felt great, my delivery also was good, the pain? yes it was there and i felt it, believe me I felt it, but the hard times was to come... very hard..
It happend or it caught up to me about the 3rd day after my daughter was born, the "baby blues" yes I spent the next 3 days in a row crying and in physical pain, a pain that felt like I had been run over ten times by a car and after that kicked all over, I went to the doctor and she told me everything was ok and this is normal and to call her if this lasted more than 2 weeks. It somewhat got better or better yet I got used to it. Life passed, days became weeks and well, you know how that goes, now its been 4 months and if you ask me how do you feel?? I will answer "ok" and i will not be lying but I feel very different, I am mostly ok. But I get anxious easily and my body aches and I can cry on the spot, sounds like PPD? well maybe it could be, but I am in denial. The though of taking meds for this makes me cringe so I will try alternative meassures for now.
My daughter, let talk about her, she is my gift in this life. she makes everything worth it and a smile from her makes all the pain go away.
well this is the start, I'll see how this goes....
