Time flies

You always hear it before being a mom or a dad, "they grow up so fast", I actually heard it many times from many people, including my parents.

It's also true that you do not truly appreciate your parents until you become one yourself,

I remember the day it finally came to me like a tidal wave, My Daughter had only been born for a couple of days and I was just finishing breastfeeding her because she fell asleep, so I was just staring at her enjoying the moment and at that time a big wave of emotion came over me and I "felt it" I totally felt it at that moment! The LOVE!!! I still remember the WAVE and became very emotional and called my mother on the phone and told her: “I finally know!” “I now mom how much you love me!!" of course my mom started to cry and I myself still get teary eyed as I am writing this here.

That experience still amazes me.

You always know that your mother loves you, I know that there are people who don't experience that love and I consider myself lucky that my mother is in my life, and grandmother for that matter, I am truly lucky to have had them in my life. My mom is still living but my grandmother "my lita" is not. I wish my grandmother could have been here when my daughter was born and to see how stubborn her great granddaughter is just like her and me.

I also miss my father but I do see him in my daughter’s gestures and in her love of music.

This post was just to say publicly to my mother that I love her and I now appreciate all the things you did for me, and all the patience that you showed even thru my teen age years and my "know it all” twenties. I love you.